Keira

Today should of been my little girls 2nd birthday . Unfortunately she died aged just ten hours . Here’s her story x

In November 2010 I discovered I was pregnant it came as a surprise as I’d just had my implant taken out a few weeks before and wasn’t planning it but I was also happy .
However the pregnancy had problems from early on . At 6 weeks I had some light bleeding . I panicked and went to hospital where I was given an early internal scan which showed a very small blob with a heartbeat . A few weeks later more light bleeding but the hospital had told me it could happen so I didn’t worry too much
At ten weeks I had a huge bleed (end of December 2010) with clots but no pain I was sure I’d had a miscarriage but again a scan showed all was fine and the hospital could find no reason for the bleeding
12 week scan went ok showed an active baby
At around14 weeks I had the blood test which tests for downs syndrome and other conditions , days later I got a phone call to go in. I was told something had come back slightly high which could indicate spinal or stomach problems , I had another scan but nothing was detected
I had a few more instances of bleeding some light some heavier but never any pain . The bleeding seemed to stop at around 17/18 weeks and everything then seemed ok , baby was moving fine etc
How wrong could I have been
I had my 20 week scan which showed a healthy girl no problems whatsoever . This was done on a Monday in march 2011
Four days later on the Friday morning I felt a trickle and rushed to toilet thinkin I was bleeding again , but I wasnt . I was leaking amniotic fluid my waters had broke at almost 21 weeks pregnant
This awful condition is known as PPROM it’s rare and horrendous and there is very little that can be done once it happens
I was scanned and the scan showed little fluid around my baby . I knew by the look on the scanners face it was serious but I didn’t realise how bad . I looked it up in the Internet and stories of how miracle babies were born as early as 22 weeks, I hoped and prayed mine would be one of them
The bleeding started again quite heavy at times , I was regally monitored by hospital – blood tests , heart beat etc
I hoped she would just hang on until 27/28 weeks where I knew she would have a much better chance
Two weeks after my waters broke on April 4th 2011 at just 23 weeks and 2 days pregnant I went into labour . The labour didn’t last too long and I gave birth to a tiny little girl weighing just 500gms . I named her Keira , she was placed in the neo natal unit on every type of device they had ,
Doctors told me from the start there wasn’t much hope and asked us to turn machines off . I said no I still hoped she would be one of those tiny miracles you hear about and in a way she was
She lived ten hours before losing her fight and for a baby so young and that had been without vital fluid for more than two weeks that was a long fight .

We were all devastated by her death we cried for weeks
We arranged her funeral for ten days later a tiny white coffin and lots of flowers . So many people came more than expected

I hope we gave her the best send off we could .
I still and always will think if her , miss her and wish she was here , we have just managed to get her headstone up so now we have something to look at with her name on

She would of been two years old today and I should be giving her presents but I can’t so instead I thought I’d publish her story on my blog – miss you so much my darling baby angel

R.I.P sleep well princess , love you always from mummy xxx